It’s always been very clear to anyone who has had the pleasure (?) of seeing my spelling, that I enevatlbiy can’t spell for the life if me. This has been the one constant with me, the fact I can’t spell normal, useful words but can spell mississippi and other words that never come up.
It’s only recently the label ‘dyslexic’ has been added to my name and although they may only be tendencies it’s nice to have a reason for my incapabilities in areas. With this I feel as though how hard I find things is taken seriously because a diagnosis has been found. Although the sad part is when people went to help me, they leave and so I have to find another way around this obstacle.
During my research and small experience in this intresting department of learning disabilities I have found that for many it’s different for different areas and effects peoples brainz differently. For me it takes time to process stuff which explains many things, why I find mental maths very hard; why it takes me so long to figure out my wording and knowing how to answer questions; perhaps why I make stupid word choices.
In my dulge I into the dyslexic community I found out that many people go into creative areas, mainly architecture. Surprisingly this is what I want to do, something that I wanted to do before some of these problems occurred.
I know that nothing has changed since this time last year, the only thing that has I’d that I’m working harder this has only motivated me more and letting it get in my way is not gonna get me where I want to be.
I may just have to try harder. And if that’s what it takes, so be it.
A blank page sits in front, the mouse flickering, panicking, just like the head inside of me. The white screen glaring, as empty as my ideas. I cannot leave it, as that is just not who I used to be, my effort will be mistaken, my grade will be lower than the size of my shoes. I hope the title counts as something because I have nothing, there would probably be more than this is if it wasn’t my 7th attempt.
Those that will see this just won’t understand that my head never makes sense, I can only answer when put on the correct tracks because currently I’m heading to Hull, when i’m pretty sure that Cardiff is where I’m meant to be. They won’t understand that I’m so much more than this, because this is what i’m being judged on my, my paragraphs and not my words, I can say it if you want, but for me to put on paper, i’m afraid that’s something i’ll always be far from.
I can’t write.
Give me a pen and some paper and I could write till my emotions run dry, it’ll come out with blank vocabulary and scribbled sentences but at least there would be something.
Give me a pen and some paper but through some limitations into the mix, rules, guidelines and things I must include, It’ll come out the same way it came in, blank, plain, lifeless with maybe a scribbled out sentence, on a good day maybe. You give me the lines expecting me to colour them, but don’t be hopefully the colours will be all wrong, orange instead of magenta and black instead of green.
I try my best, I promise you that but that never seems to be good enough, among the best of the best my words don’t come flowing out of my pen in a precise swirl of incredable words, just a blotched piece of trash in a pile of A* with a tear mark on the side…
□ Learn to do a back limber
□ Turn my hair RED!
□ Cut my hair
□ Visit the ZOO
□ Go & Camp in the garden
□ Make a visual Summer Scrapbook
□ Eat some Mango
□ Write them letters
□ Learn how to solve a Rubix cube
□ Read 3 books
□ Make S’mores
□ Build an epic blanket fort & and make it my new crib
□ Eat an Ice-Cream Float
□ Learn ‘Tonight’ or ‘Bohemian Rhapsody’ on da keyboard
□ Figure out how to twizzle drumsticks like a pro
□ Get a wonder woman dress
□ Watch ‘Finding Dory’
□ Do a tremendous act of kindness
□ Have a picnic in a field
□ Turn my hair VIOLET!
□ Go for 6 mile long runs
□ Walk on my hands instead of my feet
□ Unlock a new character on Mario Karts
□ Enjoy a freshly baked Rainbow Cake!
Lets see where summer takes me…
Originally Posted ~ 29th July 1015
A positivity challenge is where you do positive things (mainly for other people). Such as leave kind messages to people using the internet, sand, pen & paper, stones, post-it notes and anything else you can leave a message with. Or (i have seen this on the tv before) paying for someone else, like in a car park, or a museum or anywhere else where you have to pay an entrance fee.
Not only does it make them feel happy it makes you feel happy to because you have helped someone else or brightened up there day!
I did it, now it’s your turn 🙂